I’m getting ready to share with all of you (who still visit here) what has been going on behind the scenes.. This is not cat-related. I am still trying to process everything and make sense of it all. So here it goes. Before I start, I debated whether to put this out there, as there is so much controversy existing  already regarding Covid. But, I think I just want a record of all of this, and perhaps find someone who might be  dealing with these aspects of the Covid vaccine.

March 30th, I received my second Pfizer shot. Although at the time, I was relieved and happy to have both shots on board, the initial shot gave me a 24 hour, 2 week headache. That was not fun. I was told when I contacted a medical professional “schooled on vaccines” as she stated over the phone, that any attempt to bring on over-the-counter meds would be counter-productive, stopping  the process of the vaccine. So I let this dull, constant throbbing go until it left. I’ve never had a migraine, but some of my friends are migraine sufferers and this headache did not fit the bill for that. It was also not a sinus headache either. This headache was just different.

I had heard from various people and read articles that the second Pfizer shot carried some side effects. I read, or I was told it would only last a few days. Given my two week headache on the first go round, I was praying that the second shot wouldn’t even affect me. I was so wrong.

When the chills hit that night, they were quite violent. My teeth were chattering so hard, I actually fractured a back molar. (Which as of now, has been pulled). I did not have a fever, or a cough. The fatigue hit me hard. It started in my arm where I got the shot and then traveled downward into my leg. I forced myself to get up and do the things needed to keep the cats and the dog going, but I was sleeping more than normal. I kept thinking to myself: “This too shall pass.” Well, it didn’t and it hasn’t. If anything, it has accelerated. There was no headache, none, which I found curious? Just chills, night sweats and extreme fatigue. These chills on the second go round (thank God) were not violent. Not shake me out of the chair kind of chills, they went internal. They do not stop. Just call me Goosebumps Mary Anne. 🙂

I did some research because in my heart, I felt that it was connected  to the shot and not something else. I couldn’t find much, until one website, I located a survey done for people who had both vaccines on board. On the Pfizer end it stated that 2% of the people with both shots onboard had severe side effects to the vaccine. They did not expound on what those side effects were. They also revealed 5% were showing symptoms of side effects longer than just a few days!. Some going over a month.or longer.

So I caved, and went to  my doctor. The weakness in my legs was starting to alarm me. At times, when I was walking my property, it felt like my legs had no bones in them? They would first start to jiggle and then flat give out on me. Only one leg at a time, the feeling, the pain would rotate between both legs, but not make them weak together. My Daddy would tell me (if he were still here) that I had “a hitch in my get-along.”)

I think when I first walked into the clinic, they didn’t quite believe me that I had been going through this for as long as I have. They performed multiple tests on me, did a ton of bloodwork (I haven’t been to a doctor in 14 years unless it was an emergency). When my new PC heard this, he was sure it was something else. He promised to call me the minute the results came back. They also gave me my first Covid test which was negative.

What I found quite odd, before I left the clinic, I was required to answer some survey questions. I am sure those of you reading this, have done this is the past. You are given either a tablet or a piece of paper that you read and fill out. Not this time, these questions were directly asked of me by the nurse standing in the hallway looking right at me the whole time. The questions were a bit bizarre (to say the least). The two that stood out for me: I was asked if I was blind? I was asked if I was deaf? At that point, I pulled a Mike-trick. The Diabetes had robbed him slowly of his hearing over the years and he wore a hearing aid. Any time he was asked if he wore a hearing aid ( like they couldn’t see it hanging off his ear?) he would go “What? Excuse me, I can’t hear you.” The nurse laughed and apologized for the questions. She told me that they were required to ask them.

The doctor seemed pretty certain at my age (66) and the lack of care from a doctor for so many years. There HAD to be something wrong. When he called me to tell me the results this is what he said: “For a 66 year old woman who hasn’t been to the doctor in years, you are remarkably healthy!”  As he explained, there is nothing they can do for me to make this go away. They do not know enough about the vaccine to help people in my situation. The only thing that they can do is get me enrolled in a study.

I have no problem being in a study. But in this crazy world that has dropped on all of our heads of late, the study is in a town that is no longer deemed safe for others to go to. I would have to drive to Portland twice a month, and I flat refuse. I told the woman who called me if they can find a local doctor to do this study with me, I am all in. But until then, I would only fill out the surveys they need me to fill out.

I asked if this might be MS? He said he didn’t think so, I didn’t have the right symptoms for that diagnosis. I’m in  a wait-and-see mode along with 5% of the others going through what I am  experiencing..I just want a record of it all

I turned 66 years old yesterday, and I feel like I am 91 instead. I shuffle when I walk, I have constant chills. It was 74 degrees yesterday. Where was I? I had already tried sitting in the hot sun to quell the chills, that did not work. So, I was inside snuggled under two blankets (and still cold!) I feel like I have stepped into the Twilight Zone.

I have found out due to the barrage of tests that I have osteopenia (or however you spell it) I also have an extra rib. But I did not find out how to stop this process and I do not know where it will lead me next.

Kota has been sticking to my side like glue since two weeks ago when I went down suddenly in the middle of the living room. My legs just gave out. They trembled like jelly, there was a series of stabbing intense pain and down I went. He was right there comfort and support within minutes and I used his incredible strength to get off the floor.

The night sweats are getting worse. Last night, I not only had to wring out my nightgown, but I also had to wring out my sheets before I changed the bed. Coming from a deep sleep and finding yourself waking up in extreme dampness is unsettling. I wonder, where is this ride going to take me?

On the kitty front, the burn kitties are gloriously beautiful. But their behavior is challenging. I have two kittens in the house, I rarely see. Magoo when he is really scared (and anything and everything scares him) he will burrow into my bed, under the covers and hide from the predators he is so sure are after him.

Ash, her favorite place to hide is under the coffee table. i put a drape over it before they came back to us, and that is where she will spend the day.I have two kittens scared of their own shadow. I can sneeze and if they are out of hiding at the time, just a sneeze will send them scrambling for safety. God forbid, I should run the vacuum. Bring groceries into the house,  or put the laundry on the bed. convinces both of them that aliens have landed! I am hoping over time- they will grow out of these demons and become a part of the house. It makes me really miss my Molly.

I was asked yesterday by the nurse if I was sorry I got vaccinated? I told the nurse no, but that I wish the powers to be, (whoever they might be) had been more forthcoming about all of it. When you get the vaccine, you get paperwork along with it that explains some things. The vaccine is NOT approved by the FDA as claimed. It is approved for emergency use only. I found out there is a vast difference in that statement.They need more time, to explore potential side-effects to fully approve it. I wish they had taken the time, but I understand we are in an unprecedented moment in history  right now and they had to do something.

Now, I feel as if I am no longer a crazy cat lady. I am a lab rat. 🙂

Take care all of you and stay safe-